i hate this .

haish .
maybe this will be the ferst post
about me venting out my anger .
i seriously have no where ,
no one or anyway to make me feel better .
and im serious .

i guess its true that no one cares .
whye must all these problems fall on me
all at a tyme .
f*** .

ferst my parents are giving me
a REAL HEADACHE .
my mum is like .
scaring all of us out larhhs .
saying those things .
doesnt she care how i feel ?
my dad just dont give a damn .
i hate being at home .
i'll rather be out ALONE .
i hate being alone . SERIOUSLY .
but i'll rather be alone outside
than to be at home .
knowing all those problems about them .
and my siblings dont noe that
ITS A SERIOUS PROBLEM .
they just .. they dont understand .

lets talk about school .
i guess some of them knew about it .
I GUESS . im not quite sure though .
aiyahh . so what if they noe ?
they dont care anyway .
its just so hard to find a friend
that truely cares about how i feel .
its kind of a torture being in school .
i used to think that i still have my
primary school friends .
but .. im not saying that they dont care .
i just find that we werent as close as we were
in the past .
i guess
tingfang is mad at me now .
i also dunnoe whye .
she's not at home when i call her .
or is she hiding from me .
I DONT KNOW okae ?

im seriously very stressed now larhhs .
i really cannot take it lerhh .
maybe she's mad at me for throwing temper ?
i know ive been acting very
strangely or just being annoying .
i cant help it larhhs .
just think that you were me .
i dont think euu can behave any better lorhh .
i tried my very best to be nice already can .

stop giving me trouble people .
please . i cannort take it lerhh .
i dont like being emo .
and stuff .
i just want to be myself .
stop giving me trouble .
especially at home !
enough lerhh larhhs .

i want to be outside .
whye dont euu let me go ?
whye do you want me to be at home ?
i dont like it alrite ?

i seriously hate what is going on !
i cant share my problems on the phone .
because YOU will stop ME .
so what the hell you want ?
i'll rather be dead than YOU PEOPLE
giving me UNNECESSARY PROBLEMS .

im sorry for throwing my temper
at 6E gathering .
you people may hate me for it .
sorry .
i cant help it okay ?
blaming me doesnt help .
SERIOUSLY .

there's nothing i can do now .
just hope that this will stop .
all that i know is .
I'LL RATHER BE DEAD .
because its obvious that YOU GUYS ,
WANT ME DEAD .

yes ,
im envious of people
who are happy now .
especially people who have a
happy family .
who has a bunch of true friends
THAT CARES .

blame it on my luck .
to be on earth .
and knowing the fact that no one
cares about me .

thank you for that
one person who was there for me .
im very grateful .
although euu dont noe how to
comfort and stuff .
im not blaming you in this post .
thanks for everything .

and for people
who hates me and
hates me EVEN MORE
after you see this post .
im just posting how i feel .
you can write how much you hate me .
so can i .
i dont wish to CARE about how people feels anymore .
because NOBODY cares about how I feel .
and since you people DONT GIVE A FUCK .
WHYE SHOULD I ?