change change change .
its you people who changes ferst
before i even change .
whye must everything change .
these things changed me .
i forgot who am i .
i forgot how to even laugh .
or take things easily .

and now you have your own friends .
i dont think euu need me anymore .
whats the point of being there for euu ?
do you even care ?
obviously you dont treat me like your friend .
or are you treating me like your back-up friend ?

whats the point of TRYING to be happy/positive ?
no one is helping me .
you people are just trying to make things worse .
i bet i make no difference
whether im here or not .
does anyone notice me ?
you all have your own friends already .
you all can throw temper .
and ive been controlling .
it isnt fair .
i dont care whether i have attitude problems
or not .
my NEW life gave me that .

try to put yourselves
in my shoes .
you are trying to be happy
and everyone's making you down .
im not like the one who tends to
be upset for five minutes .
and the next minute im okay .

i cant do that anymore .
my life doesnt allow me to do that .
my friends dont allow me to do that .
i was there for you .
but were you there ?